Pretend

I've been playing a game for a couple of months now.  A friend, a colleague, came into my office this summer and in the nicest possible way, made me realize that I need to start wearing makeup at work. 


I used to wear makeup in my 20s and 30s, but then I started going to an aesthetician and she made my skin look like a movie star's!  With so much focus on skincare I needed very little makeup to look nice, and wanted to wear as little as possible to avoid blocking my pores with gunk.

Then I got married and couldn't afford to have my monthly appointment with an aesthetician but I still avoided wearing makeup.   So yes, my friend and colleague was right, I do need to start wearing makeup again and I have, and it has renewed my interest in makeup and skincare, as well as all the new products and techniques of wearing makeup.


I have not been focusing on my weight at all; therefore I have continued to gain weight, of course.  But I'm still not ready to focus on my weight.  I'm getting closer, but I still have a ways to go.  What I am focusing on is learning how to wear makeup, as well as improve my skincare and hair care. 


I have been watching a ton of vlogs, video blogs, to learn as much as I can about organic, natural, vegan and cruelty-free products.  It's fascinating. And I have been performing daily pretend vlogs of my own, in the mirror as I'm putting on my makeup each day and washing it off each night.  It's fun.  It's super fun to learn about all these subjects I've long been interested in, on and off throughout my life.


Interest in makeup, lead to interest in skincare, lead to interest in cruelty-free and vegan makeup, lead to an interest in nontoxic cruelty-free vegan makeup, lead to an interest in organic and natural cruelty-free and vegan makeup and skincare companies.  So it's only a matter of time till this comes full circle and feeds my desire to be slim and healthy again, I hope.


In the meantime, it's loads of fun, and super interesting.  I will try to update this blog with my pretend vlogs from time to time now.  Wishing you peace and gratitude.

Freelee

I enjoy the vlogposts by Freelee the Banana Girl.

Her topic on cellulite is one of my favorites, here are her tips:

1. High fructose fruit acids  high potassium will work to release suspended toxics and fat in lymphatic system.
2. Reduce salt to reduce retention.
3. Home B-12 shots have an amazing impact.
4. Increase circulation to get lymphatic system cycling and moving. Exercise consistency. Get fit. Exercise 20 minutes a day 6 days a week.
5. Deep breathing mobilizes fat stores. Fresh air.
6. Drink enough water to flush out the toxics by peeing them out.
7. Sleep is important to balance out the hormones.
8. Diet consistently eat a high fruit carb, low fat, (under 30 grams of fat per day) and vegan diet every day. She eats between 3,000 to 4,000 calories per day.

9. Skin brushing and massage consistently doesn't work.
10. Improvement takes years; Freelee followed it since 2006.

Saturday Feb 6 -212.8 pounds is -9 lbs!! Success leads to more success!
Sunday Feb 7 -212 pounds! Yay!  I made the goal for February!
Monday Feb 8 -212.8 lbs
Tuesday Feb 9 -? didn't weigh
Wednesday Feb 10 - AAARGH!!!!! 214.8!!!!!!!!!! ate cheese yesterday!!
Thursday Feb 11 -213.6 pounds
Friday Feb 12 -213.2 pounds
Saturday Feb 13 -? Didnt weigh
Sunday Feb 14 -? Didnt weigh

Monday Feb 15 -209.6 pounds

Tuesday Feb 16 - 212.6 pounds

Wednesday Feb 17 -209.4 pounds

Thursday Feb 18 - 212.2 pounds

Friday Feb 19 -211 pounds

Saturday Feb 20 -

Sunday Feb 21 -

Aerial

These are my weight goals for the upcoming year and beyond.  It helped to do this in the past so hopefully it will help this time.  I want nice narrow hips and small bottom, I want to be little the way I was  2-3 years ago now.

   16-26% body fat is lean.

   26.5-30% body fat is ideal.

   30.5-35.5% body fat is average.

   36-39% body fat is overweight.

January 2106  221.8 down to216
February 2016  216 down to 212
March 2016 212 down to 198  -first 10% 199 lbs
April 2016  198 to 194 –FIRST QUARTER 196 lbs
May 2016 194 down to 190
June 2016 190 down to 186
July 2016  186 down to 182
August 2016 182 down to 178 –second 10% 178 lbs
September 2016 178 down to 174
October 2016 174 to170 –HALF WAY 170 lbs
November 2016 170 down to 166
December 2016 166 down to 162

January 2017 162 down to 158 –third 10% 161 lbs
February 2017 158 down to 154
March 2017 154 down to 150
April 2017 150 down to 146
May 2017 146 to 142 -third 10% 145 lbs –THREE QUARTERS
June 2017 142 down to138
July 2017 138 down to 134
August 2017 134 down to 130 -fifth 10% 130 lbs
September 2017 130 down to 126
October 2017 126 down to 122
November 2017 122 down to 118
December 2017 118 down to 114 -sixth 10% -117 lbs

Goal = 115-121 lbs or 18-23% body fat.

DIET is to eat up to 1000 calories of starch, fat and protein per day.
All fresh fruit and veg is free, so I never have to be hungry.
Also have a reserve of 1400 calories per week to use as I see fit; either all in one day, or a little bit per day, or none at all.

MEASUREMENTS as of Monday Jan 31:
Bust 47.5"
Underbust 40"
Waist 45.5"
Hip 47"

PROGRESS:
Thursday Feb 4 -214.2 pounds
Friday Feb 5 -213.8 pounds  Still get tired after walking, had to take 15 min. nap!

Christian

This is the only public place I feel comfortable telling anyone I'm a Christian.  I was brought up Christian and feel most comfortable and safe with that title, and yet . . . I will not witness, nor proselytize, nor pretend as though I've ever read the Bible, will admit I'm ignorant of what it says.

So why am I Christian?  Because I identify with Christ and feel he's a protective force in my life.  I identify with the people in Christ's life.  He speaks to me directly sometimes and he makes sense.  I like what he stands for, forgiveness, and unconditional love, he stands for sacrifice.

The pieta is what helped me through the divorce.  When I was feeling sad and down-hearted for everything I was going through I came to the pieta and he reminded me how small my troubles were compared to those of others.  He let me see the world in balance again.  I love him, thank you!

Village

It takes a village to get me being healthy again.

For my birthday one friend bought me sexy underwear from Torrid.  Its really nice quality and I don't hate the way I look in it.  It inspired me.

Then a second friend showed me her new corset and sent me links to corset sites.  So i bought three! Haven't received them yet, but toying with the idea of doing corset training as made famous by Kim Kardashian. 

Its a form of body modification that involves moving the lower ribs in a little bit and rearranging your organs a bit, so you have to understand what you are doing and ear clean otherwise it could cause serious pain and possible injury.

So a third friend suggested I start eating clean right away instead of waiting till corsets arrive.  So did that!

Coincidently a fourth friend suggested we start walking on out lunch hour.  So we did three times last week.  Each day I was more tired than the previous day, it was clear I am very out of shape.

Just from eating clean and walking I lost 2 pounds.
From 221 pounds on Wednesday Jan 20
to 219 pounds on Saturday Jan 23.
Then i got the flu on Sunday and ate nothing,
Monday I took a day off work and when i tried eating had diarrhea, which though disgusting, meant I lost another 4 pounds
when I weighed myself on Tuesday  Jan 26 down to 215.
This morning January 28 I am down to 214.6 pounds.

When I measured my waist for a corset it was 42.5" before I started eating clean and walking.  Will report more as I measure and weigh self again!

Love, love, love becoming slim again!!!!

p.s. Plus I didn't mention the biggest motivator for wanting to lose weight is to be sexy for a particular boyfriend again, I'll refer to him as Mack.  That was what motivated me to want to lose weight in the past too when I was successful; but this time its a different man, the only other man who has motivated me to want to lose weight.  That means something.  I want him to meet my parents, I want to learn about my parents, I want to be the best I can be for him.  I haven't ever felt exactly like this before. It is a singular reaction to a singular man.

Friday Jan 29 up to 215.6 pounds
Saturday Jan 30 up to 216.2 pounds

Sunday jan 31 down to 216 pounds

Monday feb 1 down to 215.2pounds

Tuesday feb 2 down to 215 pounds

Wednesday feb 3 down to 213.8 pounds.

UPDATE:  Returned all three corsets even though they were very pretty, very pretty! But due to feeling embarrassed for having them, and they didn't give me the wasp waist I sought.  Have since bought two corsets that I can wear underclothing and give me the waist I was hoping for.

Hood

Try, try, try again.  Im going to try yet again to stay motivated long enough to actually lose weight.

Have a new motivation, to go to a big halloween party in 2016 and want to look as nice as i can.

Have started planning my costumes, have 3-4 ideas now and will continue to work on them until i have it worked out.

Wearing my red pro ana bracelet to remind me that i need to be careful what i eat.

Will maybe work on short term goals too. 

First goal make a little red riding hood cape design and then make it.  A cape will fit any size and will look nice even if i wear a different costume.  First goal is create red cape.

I love me, i have to.  I have to bide my time till i meet the man who will make all this waiting worthwhile.

Forks over knives

Starting to transition to veganism more seriously now.  And now that I'm back up to the weight where I started this blog in 2010 I am hopefully going to start losing weight in earnest too.

So I found someone willing to "coach" me, he lives in another city but is very devoted to encouraging people to follow the Forks over Knives diet.

So starting today I'm working on following his advice.
1. Eat very low fat less; than 200 calories per day.
2. Eat 1/2 raw fruits and vegetables
3. Eat 1/2 cooked fruits and vegetables